27.02.2009 (Friday)

Today woke up at 1:50am till 4am then wake up again at 6am. 1:50am---brain starting to think..many many...tears drop again..I pray for Guru Rinpoche, please show me a road. I really don't know what to do.

I wish i can fly.

I feel so sorry to people who cares about me. My parents, expecially my mother. Because of me everything change. I feel so sorry to everybody.

I dream...dream something i must protecting...some numbers..I don't know what..just protecting.

6:00am--i awake. Pray to Guru Rinpoche give me the strengh.I can feel i am very weak now. i feel like i am going to die.... My heart feel pain and bleeding.I don't know what will be going on tomorrow.